rant (if you think this is about you, it's probably not)
so many people are blind, and in a sense i suppose i am, too. i'm still just a child. people see what they want to see and believe what they want to believe. everyone wants to think they are more mature than they are/their age and honestly.. it's bullshit. i only know one person who truly acts a lot older than they are and she doesn't go around telling people that she is so much more mature than most people her age. people want to believe in their faith. that's fine. honestly, i wish i had something like that to believe in but really, at this point nothing really makes me believe. to me a lot of it just seems like bullshit. that things will work out because "god is guiding me" or "my belief in god is invincible." i would like to believe that there is a higher being/something/someone out there looking out for me but it's hard when there's no evidence to back it up. everything i have, i have worked for out of bitterness and responsibilities that i never wanted in the first place. everyone wants everyone to think that their relationship with their significant other is perfect, when in fact they are the only ones who know that it's not. good job staying true to yourself. don't believe what you hear. it's all a farce. everything. friendships. the idea that hard work will get you places. they're lies. knowing people and having money will get you places. hard work never killed anyone-- it just worked them into the ground enough to stay alive, but not necessarily enough to live.